Love Will Tear Us Apart..

He's got a new girl.
It's been almost a week since I knew. And I'm pretty much okay. Four days ago we had that conversation. It was a painful conversation that i had to pretty much face, but i guess it had to be done. i realized that since i found out about it, i concentrated a lot better in school. it's not much progress, but i know i'll get there.
i made a promise to myself that once i meet up with him in the future, i'll make him see what he's been missing out. by then, i'm going to change into this better person. i don't know the exact definition of that, but i'll get there. college is supposed to be the time for that and i'm going through the hurdles right now.
but all those songs, photos, and memories are so bittersweet sometimes. when i hear it, it travels back into those times and it leaves a certain taste in my head. i like to go back there but it's impossible, so they'll just stay memories. memories that i never regret having. it's given a new spark into my life. it changed it indefinitely.

right now, i know that all i need is time and i know i'm on the way to get over it. it was fun while it lasted. i don't want it to ruin the rest of my life. i'm beginning to have a life here. and i'm on THE WAY to adapt here. it's an interesting experience, really.
i passed botany! wohoo! even though it was a D, at least i passed. =)
i guess i have to get all these feelings out before i start to ponder about it and let it affect my concentration (again). i guess what my selfish mind wants is to get equal with him. i might regret saying this, but i think i need a new guy. so far, i cant find one. there's one that might be a potential but i'm not sure if he actually knows me. i mean, we just say hey and that's it. shit. and on my way here, i had an interaction with him.
i was walking out of the dorm, and he was walking out of the dorm as well. it was almost dark and i was using my ipod, playing an argument with myself whether i should change the song or not (Nada Surf - Always Love). but then the sight of him given me the answer. let me tell you, it sort of fit the mood perfectly hehe. he walked ahead and i walked behind him. then i started an argument whether i should talk to him or not.
darnit. he doesn't seem to have an interest on me.
people say that college is swimming with new fish. best part of it is that they don't know anything about you. it's all brand new. so far, no luck for this girl.
okay, stop it. i don't want it to be a priority. studies first.
i'm making a new promise to myself: to have fun being single and independent. :)
boys can wait.